WHAT WEED HAS DONE TO ME...
Hi,
Im new to this site and having a quick scan through the posts I get the feeling that I might have stumbled across a source of help.
I have been smoking cannabis since I was 13 which is about 17years of nearly contant use. I graduated from school and university and found work in the TV industry. There have been gaps in the use but it is always something I come back to.
Weed has ruined nearly every realtionship with woman and it seems as if I last 6 months until sopmething bad happens to ruin the bond.
I like the feeling of being stoned but it effecting several parts of my life to the degree where I dont actualy know who i am anymore.
Today is the first day in a long time I have woken up and not gone for a smoke. The problem is that I rarely smoke joints. Instead its usually in a bong or a jet-bag (or lungy etc). This is about getting a fast huge hit of THC which is like smoking a joint pure to yourself. Sometimes I have been known to do 2 or 3 before i start work in a morning, followed by another a lunch and 2-3 after work before I actually get home.
I have recently lost a 7 month relationship which ended very badly. My partner was addicted to the opiate Tramedol, which she gave up for me recently after 8 years of use. Thyis motivated me to stop my habit but I gave into cravings a few times. The end was when I drank a bottle of vodka and turned into a monster getting pyhsical to try and remove her from my house. Police where involved and they took her home.
This cannot continue.
